I didn't feel the usual high that I usually felt, but instead I felt an awkward fear, like something wasn't right. It was a very creepy feeling. I was watching the movie "Take Shelter" (ironically, a movie about schizophrenia) as well as the show "Friends" and I kept noticing synchronicities.
It seemed like every time I looked at the TV, a character was looking in my direction or was sitting in the same pose I was. I even went downstairs and found out my father was watching the same movie I was. I believe there were more that I cannot remember at the moment.
I am suspicious if these odd coincidences mean anything. I felt like my brain was sending me some sort of unconscious sign or signal. When I experienced these synchronicities, it was more than a coincidence, but I was feeling something inside of me that was telling me that what I was experiencing was relevant to me and my life.
I haven't really felt the same since this drug trip. The synchronicities have been on my mind and I am determined to find out what it means. The thing is, I am also worried if I am becoming psychotic (I have no history of psychosis). I have stopped my medication since this DXM trip and have smoked weed. The one time I've smoked weed since then, I believe I was hearing footsteps outside the house and a scream while I was high. I also heard myself laughing, but I wasn't sure if I actually laughed or if it was just in my head.
I guess my question is, can it be possible that the synchronicities I experienced mean something? Or is my brain trying to fool me?
Source: http://www.psychforums.com/living-with-mental-illness/topic93804.html
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